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School was rough, junior year was probably the most important year and of course, Peyton Garcia was out skipping school. She sat up in her room silently, tucked under the covers and waited for her aunt to make her last check on her. hey peyt, im going to work call me if you feel any worse okay?' she shut the door and Peyton waited until she heard the car drive down the street, with that she popped up out of bed. she walked over to the window to double check and make sure her aunt was gone, bingo. Now was Peyton's day off.

She walked out of her room and straight down the steps into the living room. She hummed a tune as she walked into the kitchen and stood in the center of it. hmm, what do i want for brekfast? she said tapping her chin. Peyton was still in her pink pajama shorts and black tank top when she reached up for a bowl and the cereal. She poured herself a bowl and sat down at the kitchen table. She ate slowly, but soon realized how dull and quite the house was. She needed to get out. Throwing the bowl into the sink she ran up the steps, skipping every other step, until she reached her attic door, she shoved it open and walked into her room.

She walked over to the mirror and looked at herself, she tugged at her bun and her long black hair fell down around her face causing her to smile. She loved her hair, the thickness and the length of it. She ran her fingers through it and quickly changed outfits. She then reapprochaed the mirror to apply some makeup, but first she slipped her contacts in both eyes. She let out a sigh and applied a light layer of bronzer, blush and eye shadow. Soon after she was finished she wrapped her hair back up into a bun and let her bangs fall to the side, where they normally rested.

She picked up her phone and looked at herself once more in the mirror. Let out a smile with a sigh and walked back downstairs but straight out the front door. She walked down the street and stopped. Where did she want to go? That was probably something she should figure out. Not really sure she walked down towards the Backstreets, finally approaching the local park. The park was a nice small place. As she walked up she saw a few kids playing while their parents watched from afar. Peyton sighed, images of her parents watching her on the slide flicked through her head and made her feel a bit bitter.

She shrugged these images away and sat down on a swing. She was really tired of getting down on herself. She looked down at her phone before sliding it into her pocket, if it was that important they'd keave a message. She looked up and noticed that the families were gone, she was alone, as usual.

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sometimes colton wished his parents had moved to new york with him but at other times he quite liked living on his own for most part of the time. at others however he just missed seeing his mother and now that his sister was gone he oddly enough had a small spot where he missed seeing her face in the morning before and afternoon after school hours. it was wierd how it worked out but he did know how the say went. you never know what you have until its gone, it worked for family being around for much longer then anticipated and them bam suddenly gone away. except his sisters leaving wasnt sudden, he'd known for months that she was packing up and planning to move back to seattle now that their mother had nobody around her. needless to say she had family around but they'd been on the outs with her since the birth and then death of colton's older brother dominic. they still didnt believe that he'd died accidentally through crib death, it was sad how his grandparents could ever think their daughter would do something as horrendous as smothering her son dominic. colton didnt believe it however he knew how dominic had died and he'd been quite upset for sometime because he hadnt gotten to meet him. covering his head with a pillow he laid in his bed alot longer then he wanted to. his head felt like it was going to explode and honestly colton didnt like the feeling the pounding was sending through his body. stress, school, work and his feelings for a certain person were mounting and the boy did not like feeling anything more then friendly for anyone. including this person but he couldnt change that no matter how much he wanted to in the least possible ways ever.

now usually since living alone in new york with his family back in seattle ever since his little sister had moved back to his mothers to help her out he'd been focused on school and work the two main things in life at the moment. along with another little spectrum but thats besides the point. today he'd woken up with a horrendous headache and decided school just wasnt in the plan for the day, besides he had work later that evening to make up for missing school during the day. getting himself out of bed, he sighed softly before making his way out of his room and down the stairs still cladded in his bedtime boxers that sadly had ducks all over them. they'd been a birthday gift from his sister and they were actually quite comfy. grabbing a bowl and the cereal and milk he poured some for himself and proceeded to eat it standing at the island counter thinking of where he could go and what he could do for the day. needless to say nothing came to mind so he'd drive around town and find something that didnt involve school or work until later. his dishes in the sink he made his way back up the stairs to his bedroom and grabbed an outfit out of his closet, something productive had to happen today or he'd feel like a complete loser on a day he could have spent in school. but dealing with a headache there just wouldnt be pleasant for the seventeen year old male. exhaling he dressed and slipped on his footwear before grabbing his cell phone and car keys that were attached to the keychange with his house keys. heading back downstairs he left the house after double checking his appearance in the front foyer mirror. this house was much to big but it worked out perfect for parties and gatherings he held once in awhile. drunk girls and lots of beer made for an eaasy night and a hell of lot easier way to getting his way with what he loved most. getting into his mercedes he started up the engine before heading out of the driveway and down the street. first stop on his list was starbucks, second one he didnt have a clue in the world.

that was until he ended up passing the park and see the top of a familiar persons head sitting on a swing. smiling to himself he drove on and arrived at starbucks. going in he bought himself a mocha frap and got himself a chocolate chip muffin, thinking for a moment he asked for a cinnamon dolce latte it never hurt to surprise a person with a favorite drink for the best coffee shop around. needless to say he wasnt sure if it was something she liked but hey trying never hurt to say the least. paying for it in full he got a tray thing and headed out. backtracking he got into his car and pulled out of starbucks turning back the same way he came and headed for the park. arriving he parked his car, watching others leave he headed on through the entrance and made his way over to the swing set where peyton garcia was seated. holding the latte out in front of her he smiled softly and let go as she took it before taking a sip of his. having eaten the muffin while he had driven from starbucks to the park. yes colton was a muffin addict, chocolate chip mostly but he'd eat other kinds if he wanted to. smiling again, so why are you not in school? he questioned curiously not that he really cared but hey it made for great conversation rather then sitting there looking stupid.

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t a g g e d -- peyton arianna garcia
w o r d c o u n t - nine four eight ( 948 )
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peyton sat quietly, it was actually getting a bit on the chilly side. she pushed herself off the gound with a gently kick and let the swing slide back and forth. as the cool air hit her face it made her eyes water. she quickly wipped the tears out of her eyes and looked up, she heard a familar sound, the revving of a mercedes. she looked up just as the car was turning towards starbucks. stop!

[/color] she said smacking herself. you're such a freakin idiot peyt. like seriously stop trying to tell yourself that you dont like him[/color] as she argued with herself she didnt realize that a few minutes passed and the car was back, this time parked in the parking lot. when she finally noticed she hushed and looked up, not making it obvious that she saw colton there. she looked back down and kicked off with another little push.

as she swung it grew quiet, she was terrified to look up, unsure of what he was doing, was he watching her? was he with another girl, why should she even care. peyton smacked herself mentally and tried to push the thought of him sitting there in the car with another girl out of her head. but this was something she just couldnt do, she kept thinking about colton sitting in the drivers seat facing the girl, a blonde looking tramp, to be exact, sweet talking her, and her falling for every word that came out of his mouth. peyton let out a frustrated sigh, she knew what came next, it wasnt that hard to figure out colton's tricks. she knew he would start with the smooth talk then the touchy feely 'oh i love your hair' then a kiss, then the actual deed.

the thought of that made peyton gag, literally. she bent over and put her head between her legs letting out a few gagging sounds. how could he go around screwing other girls while she was right there, waiting for him to realize that someone actualy had feelings for him. but hey, that was his loss. peyton sat for the next few moments trying to get this out of her head. she didnt even realize that someone was walking right up to her. it wasnt until colton spoke that she looked up. when he held out the coffe her nose caught the scent of cinnamon, her favorite. her head perked up and she took the latte out of his hand putting it to her mouth. she let out a sigh and looked at him, a small smile on her face. i swear, you read minds mister. how did you know this is my favorite?[/color] she asked with a warm smile on her face as she took another sip.

as she held the hot latte between her two hands she ran her thumbs along the cardboard holder, it was to prevent burning your hands, the cup was hot. she looked up as he spoke again, asking why she skipped school. well my good sir, i believe i can ask you the same thing now cant i?[/color] she said raising an eyebrow. she smiled and let out a chuckle. i really wasnt feeling the whole school thing, so i told my aunt i was sick[/color] she said shrugging. it actually worked too[/color] she said laughing. a chill shot up her back and she took another sip of her latte.

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wondering just why he hadnt brought his sweater or something with him for a moment he failed to care and shrugged off the cold shiver he got running down his back as he was walking to his car from starbucks. now that he was out in the cold again he once again couldnt care less as to why his sweater was probably hidden somewhere inside his messy room back at his house. oh well he'd survive, he always did. sipping at his own mocha latte he slipped the cardboard covering off the cup and stuffed it into his jeans pocket as he sat there on the swinging slowly kicking the swing to get it going. now colton wasnt that big of a fan of swings he was more for climbing on the monkey bars and acting like a child but that was him and he was not going to change what he liked just because he was seventeen and people thought he was simply to old to act like a little kid. to be honest he liked it and he was a big child at heart no matter what you said about him. exhaling softly the male couldnt help but wonder what if with her, what if she liked him, what if they dated, what if it all worked out and he became a one girl kind of guy. shaking the thought from his head he could not believe he'd actually just thought of that. the whole becoming one girl kind of guy just didnt look like it would be happening anytime soon not even for somebody he secretly liked no matter how much. shrugging his thoughts away he looked back at her as she spoke up and answered him, needless to say he didnt doubt that her faking to be sick worked with her aunt, he'd met the woman once before and still couldnt figure out to this very day how she made it so far in the company she worked for. it was like she was as gullible as the girls he screwed around with. sighing softly he took another gulp of his drink before holding it carefully in his two hands. it wasnt everyday that he had one of these unless somebody made a starbucks run during his shift at work and got him something. painfully honest he was usually the one doing the runs because well he was close to becoming assistant manager next to a certain boy anthony scott. the two didnt get along but that went to show that colton couldnt care less if he got the position or not but he knew anthony deserved it more and needed it more considering the male knew of anthony's daughter and occassionally watched the youngster while anthony needed to do some errands or have some daddy alone time really.

when she finished talking for a few seconds colton sat there taking in the silence for a moment, well i woke up with a headache, starbucks drinks work wonders i dont get it but least it got me to stay out of school today

[/font], he responsed sincerely as all be. the boy didnt understand how caffine could affect a person's body in such a way as it did to him, needless to say he didnt mind it in the least. the boy spent so much time getting stressed about things it just didnt seem worth it be honest and therefore he made starbucks runs alot during his shifts usually getting about five or six drinks depending on who was all on shift at the time cause nobody ever said no when colton or anybody mentioned coffee run. as for peyton's comment he couldnt help but laugh slightly, so i got it right, you like cinnamon dolce drinks good to know i'll remember that[/font]. he stated his smile fading as he wondered who was going to be throwing the next party, when it was going to be and where it was going to be held. to be honest he'd let it be held at his place if it meant his attendance was welcome when three quarters to all the time it usually was when it came to parties. he was a well liked boy and to be honest he loved the attention he recieved especially from the ditzy sex addict gullible females he found himself tangled up with. to be fair we're both free so we could do something productive that didnt involve school or something to the like he didnt know where it would lead but hanging out with peyton was never something colton missed an opportunity for. sure it seemed like he was crushing on her but he'd most likely say no and lie if anyone asked him. he never admitted to his feelings unless the person the feelings were for did something to cause him to admit to them and peyton hadnt yet so therefore he was not going to wuss out and show her how he felt. just something he didnt and never would do.

looking around the park he gulped down the rest of his drink it had gone lukewarm and it made it easier to just simply finish it off quicker then sipping at it. honestly the boy didnt like when he got the drink hot, he normally was wierd enough to let it go warm to simply gush it down before it even hit his stomach. he liked starbucks but the heat to drinks was just something he wasnt a completely huge fan of.[/blockquote][/size][/blockquote]

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t a g g e d -- peyton arianna garcia
w o r d c o u n t - nine three three ( 933 )
o u t f i t -- coming soon baby - imagine black jeans, white tshirt
s o n g - for the nights , hedley
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when she finished talking the quite was actually quite never-wracking. that was one thing peyton hated, silence. as she felt the akward stage settling in all cozy she let out a cough to try and ease up, but it wasnt nessecary because colton responded. she looked at him, eye contact always eased her nervous-ness, especially when she was with colton. for some odd reason she always seemed to-as cheesey as it sounds-get lost in his eyes. something about them, they were so inviting.

she smacked herself out of it and looked straight down at her cup, it wasnt hot anymore. she took one last finishing sip and stood up looking at the trashcan, she shot the cup and it slid it. she smirked and sat back down looking at him again. awh, poor baby. sometimes rubbing your temple helps too

[/color] she said pointing to where his temple was. she pulled her hand away quickly and kicked off gently again. the quite started to seep in again, she really hated it. she looked around, itwas dead empty today..which was weird because usually people were in the park with their kids. peyton actually liked the privacy.

when he suggested doing something together her mind ran, wait, does that mean like..the hookup way or just friends way?' she thought. she felt her heart racing and she stood up. its only fair[/color] she said smiling, the monkey bars, which werent to far from the swing, were calling her name. she started off walking but then ran and jumped grabbing onto them letting out a soft laugh. she felt like a five year old, but who cared, thats the best part of growing up, you could still be a kid. after a few moments of hanging she swung her legs up and wrapped them around teh bars bending her knees, so that she was now hanging upside down.


see i would never do this in public[/color] she said laughing, her ponytail fell out and her hair came rushing down all around her face. she chuckled and sighed, her hair tickled her face and finally fell to the ground, well not literally. she looked around for a few seconds and felt dizzy, all the blood was rushing to her head. she let out a groan and held her arms out. she unhooked her knees and went into a handstand position before flipping out of it. when she stood up straight she looked at him. so i guess those ten years of gymnastics and dance weren't that much of a waste[/color] she said smiling. she didnt know what to do next so this time she climbed on top of the bars.

when she reached the top she sat down and let her legs hang. wonderfull view[/color] she said smiling. come sit[/color] she added patting the room across from her. she smiled and leaned back resting her hands on the bars behind her. she dangled her feet and looked around, it was such a nice day.

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now normally when colton suggested doing something fun he meant hooking up and doing the deed but peyton was totally different and he couldnt just force or talk her into doing something of that. shrugging his shoulders he figured she understood what he meant as the just friends doing something fun on a skipping school day. now usually colton thought with something other then his head that was just wrong but thats who this boy was and thats how he was going to be. shrugging the cold shiver away again he managed to throw his cup letting it smooth into the trashcan. score he thought to himself a smile upon his face as he retreated back to sitting on the swing. the monkey bars had alot more fun to them but he wasnt about to go over and act like a doof unless she did first and he didnt see that happening but hey he could be way wrong about it right. when she brought her hand up to his temple he let his breath catch in his throat only to quickly exhale when she pulled away he didnt want to make it to obvious of what was going through his mind right now. kicking the swing off again he managed to ignore it and brought his eyes up to look at her as she spoke just after him. exactly

[/color] he stated agreeing with her, but i mean as friends you know[/color] he including knowing she knew what he meant from the getgo but hey it didnt hurt to remind right. not in the least to him anyway.

bringing the swing to a stop when he seen her get off her swing and head for the monkey bars he couldnt help but a laugh escape his throat, the girl had character and honestly thats what attracted him to her. she didnt care about what people thought, or said or even did and just was herself in a sense of doing whatever the hell she wanted to do. getting away from the swing he turned facing her as she hung upside down on the bar. of course i dont blame you, he stated before taking a walking stride to stand extremely close to her being right underneath the next few monkey bars over until she did the handstand and flipped forwards out of it. watching her climb back onto the top of them he just smiled softly before reaching his hands up to grab one of the bars above him. swinging himself up and locking his knees around the bar he twirled himself over the bar and was seated ontop of the bars a few from where she was. to be fair i havent done dance or anything of the sort in my entire life im just extremely flexible. he managed to redeem himself for twirling around the bar a moment before.

inhaling he let a breath out before moving over to the bar two from where she was sitting, to this point he was as close as he was comfortable with being. gulping inwardly he glanced away for a minute to catch his own breath before looking back at her. she had the most amazing eyes they just seemed to endearing and welcoming but he had to stop himself, what if he did something and made her think that they had some sort of chemistry? seriously he didnt want to go hurting her but he really did want to see what it would be like. shaking the thoughts away he redeemed himself and brought his gaze away from her face to look at the ground below them. it wasnt that high which was lucky for him in the case the boy did not like being to high off the ground. something about heights made him queasy anytime at just the thought of his feet not being able to touch the ground. who the fuck cares he thought to himself and looked back his eyes meeting hers simply stopped him from saying anything. this is wonderful view he added before leaning over towards her causing the tension between them to build just before he closed his own eyes and let himself drift causing their lips to meet sending sparks flying through his body. for a second he let the kiss continue before relentlessly leaning back. reluctantly of course. im sorry[/color] he muttered looking down at the ground below the monkey bars wondering if she'd say or do something. he didnt regret the kiss it just caused alot of feelings to sifle through him that he didnt want to feel right now.[/blockquote][/size][/blockquote]

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as she waited for him to climb up, peytons mind started to wander. 'waht wouldve happened if my parents didnt die? would i still be in the bronx, would i be sitting on different monkey bars with a different boy?' as her mind wondered she didnt notice that colton approached the monkey bars. when she finally looked up at the swings, she noticed he was gone. a hint of doubt hit her stomach 'you are such a freak' she thought. she looked down. to her surprise he was standing right near her. she felt herself stop breathing when he grabbed the bars and swung up. he was so..gorgeous!

but there lied the problem, he was too gorgeous. there were two problems wrong. one was that peyton knew she had no shot, a hot guy like him would never actually date, especially a no body like her. and two, even if she did make him hers, it would be hard to keep him, especially with his personality and reputation. these thoughts made peyton feel a little insecure. she wrapped her arms around herself and let out a soft, confused sigh. when he jumped up across from her, she smiled shyly and
finally started clapping. bravo mr flexible

[/color] she said laughing. she looked towards him and their eyes met, that made her stomach drop. her head went down and she looked at the ground. she could feel the tension between them that made her feel sick to her stomach. she finally glanced up towards him and this time, he looked away. peyton felt so insecure and just wanted to crawl into a hole somewhere.

a few seconds later peyton was feeling a little more confident. the akward silence still hung between them and when colton moved closer she felt herself stop breathing. she shifted uncomfortably in her spot and her knee touched his. she pulled it away quick, it felt as if she was being shocked, it hurt, but in a good way. she felt her cheeks go red, but what happened next, she was not ready for. when he leaned in she looked up colton i-[/color] when he pressed his lips to hers she felt her whole body go numb. she felt as if a million volts of electricity were being sent through her body, from her toes to her finger tips.

when he pulled away peyton wanted to pull him back, pull him back and never let go. when she heard he words 'im sorry' she felt embaressed and ashamed. maybe she wasnt good enough, not good enough for colton or any body else. she suddenly felt tears brewing in her eyes. she looked away. its okay i understand[/color] she paused sorry im not a slut[/color] she said before sliding off the monkey bars. when she hit the ground her ankles caved in and before she knew it she hit the ground, HARD. everything went black for a few seconds. when her vision was back she sat up slowly and started to cry. she burried her face in her hands and cried. how could this be happening?

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colton didnt know how to change who he was without making a complete ass of himself, of course he'd been a complete ass the last five years of his life. luckily he hadnt gotten in to much trouble meaning he had yet to be told by any girl if he was going to be a dad or whatever. to be honest that would slow the boy down to a complete and total stop for awhile until life got back on track. he didnt want to make peyton feel like he didnt like her or anything because god only knew that this boy loved her and it scared him. the word love just wasnt something he often thought of or even so much heard in the same sentence as his name, not normal and it wouldnt be until he changed his damn reputation which he didnt want to right now considering he'd been having more then enough fun doing what he pleased. shrugging his shoulders as they sat on top of the monkey bars it wasnt often that colton could twirl around them like a ragdoll but when he had the energy like he did today he loved wrapping himself around a monkey bar and just swing. running a hand through his hair he laughed lightly when she clapped bravo mr flexible, of course he took it as a sincere compliment for some reason whenever peyton seemed to compliment him it made him smile inside more then when he got dissed on for what he did to the opposite sex whenever there was a party he ended up doing something with about maybe three or four different girls. not that he counted each but he knew it was more then one or two at a party. of course colton wasnt one to say sorry very often but kissing her without an explanation surely wasnt the way to go and saying sorry he figured would make her feel a tiny bit better. considering he wouldnt openly admit any sort of feeling for anyone.

shaking his head he couldnt believe what he had just done, he'd upset her and that so wasnt the plan of the day to upset a good friend, perfect. when she said she understood he had to shake his head no, she didnt understand at all, nobody did when it came to colton dominic monroe's feelings. they were complicated and it even confused the young male sitting there beside his good friend or he hoped they were considering that kiss. he had felt something he had never felt in his life and honestly it was scaring the full daylights of life out of him. surely he could figure it out but making her feel horrible in the process wasnt something he had thought would happen. no peyton you dont understand

[/font], that may have sounded extremely harsh but it was true he was going to tell her why he had kissed her whether it screwed him for life or not, making the move in the first place had done damage. he didnt see why he couldnt go further and explain to her about something. when she stated the slut comment his eyes went extremely wide, shaking his head, what the hell is that about he thought to himself when he went to face her again she was sliding down from the monkey bars and he heard a loud crack of gravel below. that didnt sound good. jumping off to the ground smoothly he landed just as she was sitting up and burying her hands in her face. peyton please dont[/font], he didnt like seeing anyone cry including peyton garcia. of course you'd think he wouldnt care being colton and the reputation he maintained for the last few years of school and life. look i dont know why i kissed you but theres just alot of things running through me right now and believe it or not its scaring the hell out of me[/font], telling her this stuff may not help or whatever but he had to explain his actions and why he said sorry. and im glad your not a slut thats probably the biggest thing that draws me to you peyton, your perfect for being who you are he stated in a matter of fact tone. the one thing he hadnt expected was his heart to beat so god damn fast trying to be as real as he possibly could be right now.

he didnt know what else to say to try and make her feel better, pulling her hands away from her face he tentatively wiped the streaks of tearstains out of her face as much as he could. i just dont want to hurt you thats all he tried the best he could to be as honest as he could. what the fuck did he have to lose now, he was almost close to losing a friend and he was trying hard to contain his anger towards himself right now. wiping hair out of her face he leaned forward and his lips connected with hers again this time he didnt let go.[/blockquote][/size][/blockquote]

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when colton looked at her and said she didnt understand this hurt more then anything. maybe she didnt understand, maybe she was as stupid as she was naive. peyton didnt have time for these games, she wanted a straight understanding and for her to not understand something, it made her upset, angry and over all confused. she wanted to just hide, hide from the world, from the lack of innocence, and from all the pain. when she hit the ground she felt herself go numb. but when she regained her eyesite she sat up, despite the fact she probably had a minor concussion, and started to cry.

when he jumped down peyton didnt move. she knew that he jumped because she heard his feet hit the pavement. she didnt want to hear the explenations, she had heard enough already and that would just make her feel more ashamed. when he said not to cry she couldnt help but look up at him with an angry/confused look on her face. how can i not cry colton?

[/color] was all she managed to get out before letting out more tears and putting her face back in her hands. she really didnt want to be here right now. things were just not adding up to what she wanted. what she wanted was for everything to be different, was for him to actually care about her, for her to actually notice that he did care for her.

when he said that alot of stuff was running through his head, and that it scared him, her head shot up with the same look on her face. so by kissing me what did that gain?[/color] she paused what is it that is so complicated, why are you so scared to feel anything?[/color] she was actually starting to get a little bit frustrated. when he commented on how she wasnt a slut, that made her feel a little bit better then before. although it draws you in there is still something there that is holding you back colton, im not stupid.[/color] she didnt know why she was getting so mad at herself, it seemed like she was going from bad to worse, not to mention her head was spinning.

she couldnt handle this anymore. she needed to leave. im sorry but until you figure out what you want, dont talk to me, because i dont need the ups and downs, my life is shitty enough as it is[/color] she said through tears. when she tried to get up she stumbled and fell back into her spot. this made her frustrated and she let out a load aggrivated groan. i hate my life[/color] she said under her breath. when colton pushed her hair out of her face she felt the sames sparks as before but this time, stronger, and that made her nervous. whats he doing? she thought. but before she could say anything their lips were connected, and this time he wasnt letting go. peyton let her eyes slowly shut and she wrapped her arms around his neck. maybe he did know what he wanted, maybe it was her that didnt know.

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lingering his lips connection to peyton's he inhaled as best as he could through his nose and pulled back, that was probably the most meaningful kiss in the last two years. because of who he was he tended to just end up in bed with somebody that he wasnt even remotely dating in the least. and he didnt want peyton to be the one hurt for him doing that someday again. to be flat out honest he wanted to be true to peyton but he knew he couldnt and that was a reason he didnt do anything to get with her in the first place. something was holding him back, the reason being he was scared to love her and break her heart into a million more pieces then just kissing her in the park. he wanted more then just friends with her but doing something about it would get somebody hurt if he slept with anyone. exhaling he looked her in the eyes fair and squarely. i dont want to run from you but running is stopping me from hurting you

[/font] more that probably confused the hell out of anyone including himself but he did not know how else to explain himself. i kissed you because i want to make sure that my attraction to you isnt just thinking i am, i actually feel really attracted to you because your different[/font]. how else could he tell her that just for once he wanted an honestly true relationship and she was the one he wanted it with. it scared the hell out of him and to be honest he wanted to figure it out but hurting her in the process wasnt what he wanted to do. peyton was probably more special to him then any girl he knew and he knew for sure kayleigh would kick his ass if he ever unintentional let something happen and hurt her. he didnt need an ass kicking and thats probably an understatement to what he would get from kayleigh for doing such heartbreak to peyton as he had done to his only true ex girlfriend he hadnt spoken to in three years.

at her comment to not talk to her, his eyes widened a little. he was trying to figure out what he wanted and the fact being the word love scared the shit through him. believe it or not but im to scared feel anything because your probably the only person im scared of hurting, and i dont want to hurt you with my reputation and you know exactly what i mean. sighing softly when she went to stand up only to fall back his hand automatically when out to touch her on the arm to make sure she hadnt fallen to hard on her ass end. standing up in front of her he was at her side reaching his hand out, here let me help he added before grabbing her hand slowly pulling her up to lean against him. if she wanted to leave he'd drive her home not a problem but he'd still want to talk to her and he'd still want to hang out with her. if kayleigh found out he'd made her cry at all he'd face up and tell kayleigh exactly how he felt about this girl. peyton was special whether she believed him when he said it or not. look peyton i want to be with you, thats all i can say[/font], he didnt have any other explanation for his actions. if you want to leave i can drive you home but i think you should go get checked you might have cracked your ankle or something he inclused his arm wrapping around her lower back to steady her up beside him.[/blockquote][/size][/blockquote]

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t a g g e d -- peyton arianna garcia
w o r d c o u n t - six three two ( 632 )
o u t f i t -- coming soon baby - imagine black jeans, white tshirt
s o n g - for the nights , hedley
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when colton finally pulled away to take a breath she unwrapped her arms and looked at him. she couldnt stand to look at him because her face started turning a shade of red, fire truck red. she looked away quickly and let her bangs fall into her face blocking her from view. she wanted to hide. right now she was so confused. she wasnt sure what she was feeling. she looked up slightly when he started to speak. colton, you dont have to run from anything.

[/color] she said after he spoke of how he was running to protect her. and what are you getting out of running away from me, trying to protect me? you are actually hurting me more by doing this then not[/color] she said shrugging. when she was finished talking she looked back down, this was mortifying. how could she be so stupid, she shouldve just stayed home, this whole catastrophe couldve been avoided. its not that she didnt want to kiss him, because that wasnt the case, but she just couldnt take the ups and downs anymore.

colton-[/color] she stopped and let out a quick sigh. before she stood up she looked up at him and finished her sentence i need to know whether this is a waste of time, or will something good actually come out of this?[/color] she took his hands and stood up. when he pulled her to him she let her head rest on his chest/shoulder for a second before steadying herself. if you want to be with me, prove it. make me want to stay here with you right now, because im starting to want to go home[/color] was all she said. she looked at him in his eyes and didnt look away, for once she felt as if she said something right, as if she made an impression. it was going to be one way or another. she didnt want to leave but if things were going to keep going on like they were, she was going to leave.

as she waited for him to say something she let her mind wander. her body didnt hurt, just her heart. she wasnt sure what to do anymore and him being terrified just made it worse. when she looked up she couldnt help but lean in and place her hands on his chest. she rested her head near his shoulder and sighed. i want to be with you too, more then anything but i need an answer, i cant handle this colton[/color] she said in a small voice. she closed her eyes and sighed again, she didnt want to hear something that would make her more upset.

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colton didnt know what to think anymore, he was running to prevent hurting her and yet here was doing exactly what he didnt want to do, hurt her. exhaling softly he ran his free hand through his hair as he steadied them both standing there, he didnt feel like falling over and landing on his ass end at the moment that would be proof that he was an ass and needed to grow the hell up and deal with what he was feeling. but the feeling that scared him the most was love, it just wasnt that he didnt want to love her, it was that he was scared of the love hurting them both and screwing them up for good. that was something colton wouldnt be okay with was losing a friend because of risking a friendship to see if they truely were right and meant for each other. colton had a small thought that he and peyton would make it okay and that he could change especially for her but that'd be a major cut back on drinking and probably attending parties for awhile considering those were the things that got him into the most trouble in the last few years of his teen life. help me change

[/font], it was all he could think of, if he could become a one girl kind of guy then it would be a good thing for this happen, if he couldnt change he was screwed for life and he was never going to be able to love without being extremely scared of hurting the other person or getting hurt by his actions. needless to say his biggest fear was someone coming up to him someday and claiming they have his kid, that would be the end he'd face up and take care of it of course but he'd be freaking out about it in the same sense.

when she steadied herself against him he couldnt help but let out a sigh of relief at least she hadnt smacked him yet, though he'd been waiting for it she hadnt. that went to show he hadnt made a big mistake by making his feelings known to her. i dont know peyton honestly i dont know what will happen but i want to at least try and do this me and you in it together, he hoped she would at least give him the chance to show her that he really did like her and it wasnt just some silly lie to get in her pants. that he would never do to his friend ever. gulping inwardly he looked around the park as she leaned her head to his shoulder slightly near his chest he couldnt help but be content right now. leading her over towards the nearest bench he sat down and got her to sit beside him before turning to face her slightly, his left arm still around her waist. i honestly dont know how im going to prove it but i'll cut back from parties, i cause myself trouble there, it was the least he could do and he knew it was the only thing he could do right now, he also had a sister to take care of before she headed back to seattle to live with their mother since their fathers death a year ago. when she added that she wanted to be with him to he had nothing but a smile on his face, was she joking he'd be the least of pleased if she was and she didnt look like she was. needless to say her reactions of kissing him back showed she wanted to be with him but he had to refrain himself from going any further or trying anything further.

refraining himself was easy with her, she made it that much easier to want to change, just by being who she was. it was like peyton was all he needed in the world to change who he had become. maybe with her by his side he could change and stop sleeping around. now that being the big question, would he actually turn down a party? he was not completely sure on that but he was going to try and be the same colton everyone knew just less sleeping around and a few less parties. he didnt need to go cheating on peyton that would be making this whole incident a complete waste of time and life. although he didnt regret kissing her to say the least he was going to hate himself if he ever hurt her. one chance, its all im asking for, if i screw up you can hurt me as bad as you want[/font], it wasnt much but he'd willing let her hit him, kick him or punch him anywhere she wanted to. he knew it would be painful but one chance was all he wanted to prove that he loved her and he was going to try and be true to her and honest for himself.[/blockquote][/size][/blockquote]

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t a g g e d -- peyton arianna garcia
w o r d c o u n t - eight four two ( 842 )
o u t f i t - coming soon baby - imagine black jeans, white tshirt
s o n g - for the nights , hedley
n o t e s - this is of course before the party thread hes in with kaelin.
c r e d i t - template/banner (c) me, lyrics (c) hedley

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when he let out a relieved sigh and said that he wanted her to help him her head shot off of his chest. she looked at him with a confused look to her face. help you do what exactly?

[/color] she did know what exactly. she knew that he wanted to stop partying, to stop drinking and stop having sex with random girls. but that was something that he had been doing for a while, and peyton just wasnt sure what she could possibly do to change him. she didnt like the word 'change' it made it sound as if he was bad, as if what he did was bad. granted, it wasnt the best thing, but thats what drew peyton to him, his sense of adventure and not giving a shit attitude.

when he confessed that he wanted to try this thing, for the both of them, and for them to be a team she smiled. you dont understand how happy this is making me colton. im willing to do whatever i have to for you, its just, i cant change who you are. you will always be the same colton.[/color] she sighed and looked at him, she didnt want him to change. when he led her over to the bench she sat down willingly and looked at him. when he talked about cutting down on parties a smirk grew across her face. its not that you should cut down, just bring me with you, i like to party too ya know[/color] she said making a little pouty face but laughgin slightly.

when he commented on having one chance and if he screwed it up, the consequence her face went into a look as if she bit something sour. two things. one, i will never make you change for me, you are who you are and i can live with that. and two, you wont screw it up because i know you and i know that if you really work hard, it can work out.[/color] she tried to avoid saying i know you and when you love someone it works. she wasnt sure if he loved her, but she sure as hell did love him. peyton was never a girl to believe in love at first sight, but that all changed when she first saw colton. things were different with him, she just felt like she could be herself, her same old dorky self. and now she felt safer then ever.

when she was finished talking she smiled. im not asking you to change, just try this, for me okay?[/color] she said calmly. she placed one hand on his cheek and looked into his eyes and let out a small chuckle and smiled. you mean alot to me colton[/color] she said her smile fading into a somewhat serious face. he really did mean everything to her, and she was willing to try everything to make this work.


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colton was not very sure as to what he was trying to say in the last half hour or so he'd been hanging out with peyton all he'd done was make a complete ass of himself and cause her to cry now that was not smart. all he could see was kayleigh running after him with a log to smash into his head. the thought caused him to cringe for a second. focusing on her when she spoke, he knew that she was just wondering how she'd help him change but he wanted something with somebody that meant something and that was not exactly who he wanted to be either but he still didnt want some random chick either. to be honest colton didnt know what he wanted but right now peyton was it and peyton would be all as long as he worked hard and ignored all signs of screwing up he'd be alright. yes he loved her unknowingly to her because it felt a little to soon to tell her so right now but besides the point. i dont know what i meant by the change thing but i gotta stop sleeping with random people or im going to end up as a father i dont want to be right now

[/color] he stated matter of factly, she'd get what he meant. for being seventeen years old he was quite to young to be entering fatherhood instead of college that was for sure.

smiling softly he had finally done something right with his day, he had made peyton smile, and he had gotten one of the things he'd wanted. the other thing he wanted he wasnt exactly sure what it was peyton was enough to suffice the boy's heart now. finally though he was feeling better and he needless to say didnt have any ideas of throwing a party or attending one like he had planned. honestly he would but he'd told her he wouldn't go to so many. well every so often i'll bring you with but im warning im an ass when i drink and big time at that he added with a serious nod of his head. he knew he acted like a complete and total jerk at a party he wasnt going to lie about it, because of course somebody always reminded him the next day if he'd done something towards being an ass or something to somebody. usually it happened to be sleeping with some guy's girlfriend or winding up and punching somebody in the face for nothing. to suffice he'd had a reason at the time but he'd forgotten why the next morning and had said sorry all over himself more then a hundred times that day. you realize i love it when you pout[/color], he loved her pout it was a cute on her. his sister had him wrapped with the puppy dog look , now if peyton did that he'd rethink his sanity on life's true personality.

raising a brow slightly as she spoke, he let a smile grace his face as she said that she knew he'd not screw up because if he worked hard it would all slide in his favor basically. the boy didnt believe in love at first sight, that was truth, but he had been attracted to peyton from the very beginning when they had met the first time, but he'd known it was near impossible to even get with her but surprising they'd become pretty good friends. as long as you can handle me when im a jerk then im sure we can make this work, he really was going to do everything he could to make this whole thing work with him and peyton, it was simple, take her to parties and hang out with her and that way he'd stay out of trouble and stay away from other guy's girlfriends of course he'd have to avoid them at all costs to begin with but no harm in that. and trust me you mean a lot to me right now to he stated with a serious nod of his head.[/blockquote][/size][/blockquote]

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t a g g e d - peyton arianna garcia
w o r d c o u n t - seven zero eight ( 708 )
o u t f i t - imagine black jeans, white tshirt
s o n g - for the nights , hedley
n o t e s - this is of course before the party thread hes in with kaelin.
c r e d i t - template/banner (c) me, lyrics (c) hedley

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when he answered about what type of change she smirked. yeah, no. thats gotta stop. at least while im in the picture

[/color] she said pushing him gently to show it was all in good fun. she knew that she shouldnt be this jealous over protective girlfriend, but deep down in her gut she had a feeling of jealousy. all the other girls that got to colton before her were still out there, which most likely meant they were ready to get with him again. that worried her just a bit. she knew that colton was going to try hard to, one.keep it in his pants and two.stay faithful, but she just had a hint out doubt. not wanting to dare tell him that she smiled. but i trust you.[/color]

she smiled. but inside she was really doubting this. what if he did cheat, but right now that was something she didnt want to think about. she had actually managed to snag one of the hottest boys in school. she let out a small wimper and then her eyes grew wide and she looked at him embaressed. uhm...yeah[/color] she let out an akward chuckle and looked down covering her face with her hand. im a freakin idiot, what attracts you to me?[/color] she said smiling but still hiding her face. when he said how he loves it when she pouts she smirked. oh ive got a weakness now[/color] she winked and laughed. she knew that his little sister had him wrapped around her finger, and to her that was a major turn on.

she sighed. i think i can handle you whenever, or i wouldnt be sitting here would i[/color] she said sarcastically when he mentioned how she should be able to handle him when he's a jerk. she smirked and then smiled. when he said that she meant alot to him her face turned serious and then a warm smile spread across her face. really?[/color] she said in a small voice. she looked down for a quick second then leaned in and kissed him, quickly but enough to make her body tingle again, that had to stop, it kinda hurt. she smiled and looked down in her lap fidgeting with her hands, geeze could this day get any more eventful?

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